I spent this past weekend in Pinehurst, where I took another lesson from Kelly, my swing coach. Although I had wanted to make significant progress this past week, I was overcome by extreme fatigue. Not knowing if it was coming from my kidney stone or just a sudden leap in working out, I wasn’t able to practice as much as I wanted to. I did make some good headway, and found out that I could make my “true move” in slow motion. Although I was not able to add speed to it yet, I was pleased that my progress was real. And I learned some additional insights about the nature of change. “It’s looking good, Veronica,” Kelly said. “What I am noticing is that when you make your old move, you are no longer hitting solid shots. When you make your new move, you are rewarded. It is so much easier for you to come back to the ball, and you hit it solid when you get in the right position at the top. You don’t even have to compensate, manipulate, or figure out how to uncompensate on the way down. You just automatically swing right on the way down. You know you are making good progress when you are no longer rewarded for your old move, and are rewarded for your new move–that way you will be motivated to keep making the new move. Wow. There is a life-lesson in there. How often do we know we need to make a change in our lives, but don’t because what we are doing is still rewarding us somehow. But when we are no longer rewarded for that unhealthy habit, thought or behavior, then we are convicted to make a change. Being rewarded for your true move is much more exciting than all the effort and compensation it takes to make a move that is not truly rewarding. Afterwards, I played 27 holes, totally fatigued, but somehow energized when my drive went about 30 yards farther than before. Praise God! I have one month until the Open Qualifier. I have to start walking two hours a day to be able to walk 14 miles in one day. Tomorrow I go to the doctor to find out what my “next move” is with my health. I think about how my quest has been greatly challenged and somewhat hindered by my health condition, but I refuse to let it deter me. I just have to use wisdom.
May 3, 2010 The Nature of Change
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