In just 18 days, I will be playing in the Women’s U.S. Open Qualifying tournament. It will be a daunting task as I will have to play 36 holes in one day in grueling heat. Today I played in a practice round at Sugar Mill Country Club where the tournament is taking place. It was a beautiful course, well-manicured and decorated with beautiful flowers.
I always love playing a course that is inspiring. It is worth the investment of time, talent, and resources just to have a world class experience on a world class golf course. The real highlight of my high challenge, however, is not the dream of playing in the world’s most prestigious golf tournament. For me it would be the second time around to do so. Rather, it is the pursuit of calling yourself up higher. Today I realized that on this test of golf, I would have to call up my highest self —the champion within— to score big on this course.
Although the yardage for the tournament is marked around 6,500 yards, the course played much longer, about 6,800 yards. A ridiculous length for women! There was something about the challenge today, however, that was remarkable. I kept asking myself, “How do I need to play this course in such a way as to win the prize? Not just to play and have fun as a senior player and most likely the oldest one in the crowd, but to really prepare to win and give myself the best chance?”
As I teed it up hole after hole, the answer came to me. “I am going to play FULL OUT every shot for 36 holes. This is going to require AN AGGRESSIVE TRUST IN MY SWING.” “Aggressive trust,” I said to myself. “I have never said those words before.” What is an aggressive trust?
Webster’s Dictionary defines aggressive as “marked by a driving force of energy or initiative.” “Trust” is defined as “assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something. One in which confidence is placed.” In other words, I would have to play each shot with a strong force of energy with an assured reliance in the integrity of my swing. Get that? MY swing.
My swing has been the focus of so much lack of confidence, breakdown, insecurity, and lack of trust. Do you know how long I have made a concerted effort to find the power in my swing where I could have a consistent, repetitive swing? Most of my golf life. Uhh…that’s over 40 years. More recently, a concerted diligent effort to end my golf swing misery—a dedicated effort of over 5 years to banish my swing faults.
About a year ago, I found a really great teacher who helped a lot. I saw a lot of promise in my swing. The problem is, I am currently in Florida and he is in North Carolina. With just a few weeks to my big competition, I had to find a swing-thought that worked for myself. Did you hear that? I had to work it out on my own. I had to OWN my swing in order to find the solution.
I did. As I grew in my new-found confidence in my swing move, I am still honing it out. However, today, I had to let go of “playing it safe,” trust the work I have done on my swing, and just RIP IT. I had to. I had to TRUST MYSELF IN AN AGGRESSIVE WAY. You know what? It worked. It was a non-conscious move to consciously trust my game. It was the ONLY way I knew I was going to have a chance. Each shot would need to be an all-out shot.
As I left the course, thinking about the STATE OF PLAY that my championship chances would require of me, I thought about the Body of Christ. Yep. I thought about where God is wanting to take His people, how it is a SEASON OF ENTERING into the fullness of your calling. I thought about how there is only one way to fully enter something—all out—with an AGGRESSIVE TRUST.
A wonderful friend called me tonight asking for my feedback on an executive situation in her business. One of her top companies which produces the most income for her is not meeting her standards of integrity. She asked me what she should do. I asked her to consider not seeing the situation as a threat which only evokes negative emotions of fear, anxiety, and worry, which she admitted to having. Rather, I challenged her to see the situation as a challenge which evokes positive emotions. “What would happen if you went into that conversation you are going to have with your client FROM a place of AGGRESSIVE TRUST in yourself? What if you decide to approach that conflict from the deepest place of your own integrity—not to run, but to call them up higher. What if you didn’t move off of who you are but through being who you are, address the situation and then let the chips fall where they may? It all starts with how you see yourself. Do you aggressively trust yourself?” She got the point, was inspired, and left the call determined to swing into her meeting with an AGGRESSIVE TRUST in herself.
If we are going to fully enter into our calling in this season, we must call ourselves up higher, not to just trust in God. In this season, God is calling us to aggressively trust in ourselves, take the swing full force, and leave the outcome to Him. You see, everyone has a championship. God wants YOU TO PLAY IN SUCH A WAY AS TO WIN yours.
The chances of my qualifying are slim in the natural. I have learned to play FROM victory, however. In my upcoming championship test, I have already won despite whatever score I shoot. I have tapped into my full out pursuit and potential.
Try it. Go through your day today from a place of AGGRESSIVE TRUST in yourself. It’s time for you to play to win—and win!